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Wisdom

I was talking to Kristen yesterday and we were talking about wisdom-which I feel like I'm lacking at the moment. So, after we got off the phone I was doing some reading in James 1, Proverbs 3, Proverbs 31.....Right now in this place we're in I feel so lost. Luke said yesterday it's like being in a cave just feeling around in the dark-that is exactly how I feel. It's so hard to be in this time of waiting and not know exactly what God is doing. I told Luke for the past few years he'd been preaching his central theme was "God, I trust you."....well, now that's all we can do.

"If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ad God, who give generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts i like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does."
James 1:5-8

So we just have to ask for it and He gives us wisdom-novel idea, huh?

I truly just want to be in a place where we can minister to people who are hurting and who are in need of a Savior. I want to build lasting relationship and make a difference in people's lives-not spend all of my time trying to squelch gossip and rumors, but teaching people who are hungry for the Word. When I was in high school and I surrendered to the ministry I didn't picture it like it's been-if that makes sense. I thought I'd be in a place giving showing people the gift of salvation-showing people who really were hungry for the Word-possibly being a missionary to people who've never head of Christ.....In reality serving at a church has been so full of sinful Christians who think because they are a "christian" they are always right and know God and don't need to be closer to Him. Most of the time instead of feeding hungry people I'm wishing I could shake people until they snapped out of what ever dream world they're living in. It has made me sad to realize that most churches are full of people who think they are doing the "right" thing, being "good" people-when they don't realize that they are still in need of a Savior-it's a continual thing. Just because we walk down the isle or get saved at youth camp doesn't mean it's over and done with. I want to show people that. Some of the people who are most in need of a Savior sit in a pew every Sunday singing "Have Thine Own Way" or "Change My Heart O God".

"God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. If we claim to have fellowship with him yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live by the truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light we have fellowship with one another , and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin."
1 John 1:5-7